Thursday, July 14, 2011

Some Days

"The story of a mother's life: Trapped between a scream and a hug."
Cathy Guisewite

Some days I really love being a stay at home mom. 

Some days I don't.

Some days I manage to get through the day without ever having to raise my voice. 

Some days I don't.

Some days I do the things a Godly mother should do. 

Some days I don't.

Some days I feel like I am blessed beyond measure. 

Some days I don't.

This was one of the "I don't" days.

My older chicklets are bickering with each other nonstop, the Little Prince is really embracing the whole "Terrible Twos" thing right now and the Geek is away on a business trip so I am completely on my own. 

I woke up this morning and Boy Wonder greeted me with a snarl. Apparently I am somehow responsible for that fact that the bike he left out in the rain now has brakes that have seized up.   In no time, he and the Munchkin were at each other's throats.  Not to be outdone in the screaming department, the Little Prince decided it was the ideal time for a tantrum.  Perfect, just perfect.

It wasn't long before this Mama Hen lost her cool.  I raised my voice and I raised it loud.  Feeling anything but blessed, I counted the hours until nap time.  It couldn't get here soon enough.

I know tomorrow probably will be a better day.  My kiddos will probably quibble, but I just might be able to keep my own frustration in check.  Maybe God will give me the strength to be the kind of mother I wish I could always be. I'm sure I'll count my blessings as I often do and I'll feel blessed beyond measure.

But today, I don't.


Courtney Walsh said...

I've been having quite a few of these days myself. Lately, I go to bed and tell my husband "I wasn't a good mom today..." It's tough when they don't listen! ugh. and the fighting?? Don't get me started on that.

It WILL get has to!!

Pamela said...

I hope so for all of our sakes! This is so not what I signed up for:)